To be honest, I'm still not sure I did. I'm scared about my low word count, I'm scared about my shoddy world building, I'm scared that this story JUST DIDN'T WORK. I'm scared that my MC is totally unlikeable or unrelateable, that my love interest isn't that desirable, and that my secondary characters are flat and boring (LIKE THEY ALWAYS ARE).
Basically, I'm scared.
But I'm also super excited about this idea. I've always loved the character of Eponine from Les Mis... or should I say, from the musical Les Mis. In the book, she's not that likable. More than a year ago I was watching the 25th Anniversary DVD of Les Mis, my heart breaking (as it always does) when Eponine sings On My Own, and crying (as I always do) when Eponine and Marius sing A Little Fall of Rain. So during all this breaking heart and crying, I thought, WOULDN'T HER STORY BE SO GOOD ON ITS OWN? WOULDN'T IT BE GREAT TO MAKE IT MODERN?
Cue a few months later when I decided, WOULDN'T IT BE GREAT IF I MADE THIS STORY URBAN FANTASY? (I'm still not sure if that was great or not.)
Cue another year later and I'm done and I still think GREAT GREAT GREAT mixed in with a lot of SCARED FRIGHTENED and HOLY CRAP WHAT DID I JUST WRITE?
On Monday, when I pick this thing back up again, I'll get to see just how crappy/great it turned out. So, here's to first drafts! *clink* And here's to revising! *clink clink*
And here's to Eponine.
I'm actually excited for you, Melanie! I read a quote yesterday that said people see us as 20% more attractive than we think we are. I think that can be applied to manuscripts as well. Your manuscript is probably 20% better than you think it is. Coming back to a first draft is always exciting.
ReplyDeleteI've never seen or read Les Mis. I should!
Awesome! I love finishing manuscripts, and I think Eponine deserves a retelling.
ReplyDeleteAs for the mess at the end of a first draft, well, that's just sort of the way writing goes. I'm sure you'll clean it up in no time.
When I saw your MC's name I hoped it was a Les Mis retelling! This sounds amazing -- Eponine was my favourite character in Les Mis when I watched it a few weeks ago, and the favourite of most ladies I know. She really got such a rough deal in the story!
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